In all honestly I was going to write this blog just to say hi to my mom but God has been speaking to my heart. Each morning we wake up to the sound of fire crackers which wasn’t as bad as the two birds fighting on our tin roof this morning but I feel like God is setting off fire crackers in my life. Today I was designated the poster child for seeing Jesus because I’ve said it a million times this week but I feel like God has just been pulling at my heart. I’ve seen him show up in the smallest of places from a little kids smile to him literally stopping the rain for us to walk home. This week has really set my heart in the right place. For a few years I have wanted to do relief work and God has been conforming my desires to do that. As I try to fix my eyes on God this week I realize my heart isn’t always following that.
Romans 12: 1-2 “Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God- this is your act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
This verse has hit me hard today. I realize God has a perfect plan written out for my life and as long as my eyes are fixed on him it will be carried out. So often I get caught up in the moment and I don’t always set my mind on God and his will and plan. I realize today I think I know my plans for college and the rest of my life but God can change that tomorrow and it is his good, pleasant and perfect will for my life. I may not know what my future holds but I know who holds the answers to it. It is like driving I the traffic here. Wow… I don’t know why they even have stop signs or traffic lights. People are so focused on where they are going and they don’t care if they cut you off or almost hit the random people juggling in the road. As I got lost in the traffic I realized I was missing what was all around me. There were beautiful buildings and mountains all over but I had begun to miss it. Just from lifting my eyes I saw simple beauty in every street corner. That’s what God has been pulling at me to do is just lift my eyes to him and not the world around me. The Guatemalans have taught me how to live day by day and not worry about what’s to come because it’s all in God’s hands.
P.S.- I love you momma!!